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Fragments
02:43
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VERSE 1:
I can only love in fragments
Secret rooms and closets
Dissociate, detachment
Yeah it’s pretty flawless
I can only feel in fantasy
Overblown and reckless
Just has got to feed my vanity
Always charged and restless
Maybe if my father loved me
I’d be on some new shit
but I’d probably just be more empowered
in my bullsh—
CHORUS:
so hey
yeah hey
take the broken parts
make a mosaic so fine
I’ll say hey
yeah hey
take the broken parts
make this kaleidoscope mine
VERSE 2:
I will try to love more wholly
Open doors and windows
Reframe all the trauma slowly
Shine bright on the shadows
I will try to feel myself
All the sunlight and shade
Embracing every facet
No more masquerades
Maybe somewhere my father loved me
I just never felt it
All fear and no trust will do that
Time to find some new shit
Done with all the bullsh—
CHORUS:
so hey
yeah hey
take the broken parts
make a mosaic so fine
I’ll say hey
yeah hey
take the broken parts
make this kaleidoscope mine
VERSE 3/ OUTRO:
Maybe somewhere my father loves me
I’ll just never feel it
All fear and no trust will do that
Time to find some new shit
Done with all the bullsh—
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2. |
Kill a Ghost
02:57
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Well they say that you can't kill a ghost
But I'll burn down a building with your ghost inside
One of these days
I'll pick each piece of wood precisely
Pour some kerosene
And enjoy the blaze
Well they say that you can't kill a ghost
But they haven't met me when
My mind's been made
And it's just me in my rocking chair on this porch
My lighter's ready
When you want to test your fate
Well they say that you can't kill the devil
But evil's impatient
I've got time to wait
I'll wait it out til you get tired
Let your guard down
And fall into my bait
Well they say that you can't kill the devil
But they haven't met me when my mind's been made
And it's just me and my rocking chair on this porch
My shotgun's ready
When you want to test your fate
You don't get to haunt me no more
I'm done reliving nightmares
You don't get to torture me no more
I won't relive that life
You don't get to hurt me no more
I'm done reliving nightmares
Done with the devil, done with ghosts,
Just got my shotgun and kerosene
Done with the devil, done with ghosts,
Just need my two hands and me
Well they say that violence ain't the answer
But they also turn their heads away from the bruised
And once it gets to a certain point
I'd rather be scary than abused
Well they say that violence ain't the answer
But they haven't met me when my mind's been made
And it's just me in my rocking chair on this porch
I'm all ready when you want to test your fate
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3. |
Cool Girl
03:22
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I wish you cared enough to hit me up
Wish I were cool enough to not care
Wish I could just connect and not attach
Leave these feelings over there
I wish my well of emotions didn't run so deep
Wish I could turn the faucet off
I can fake blasé so damn well
But oh to truly turn it off
Tell me what is it like
To not feel everything?
What's that day like
For you?
Tell me what is it like
To not get everyone
While no one ever
Gets you?
Tell me what is it like
To not feel everything?
What's that day like
For you?
Tell me what is it like
To not get everyone
While no one ever
Gets you?
It would just be so nice
To put these feelings on ice
Block out the world
And be a cool girl
I wish you cared enough to want to see my soul
Wish I were cool enough to not care
Wish I could just connect and not attach
Leave my feelings over there
I wish I couldn't feel everyone else's emotions
Information overload
So tired of sensing the secrets of others
About ready to implode
Tell me what is it like
To not feel everything?
What's that day like
For you?
Tell me what is it like
To not get everyone
While no one ever
Gets you?
Tell me what is it like
To not feel everything?
What's that day like
For you?
Tell me what is it like
To not get everyone
While no one ever
Gets you?
It would just be so nice
To put these feelings on ice
Block out the world
And be a cool girl
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4. |
Fool for You
03:55
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Grateful for all the little ways You show me you don’t care
You never listen to my lyrics
But you sure notice my hair
You don’t respond to texts for days
But light up when you see me
You’ve got a smile that isn’t fair
Oh I can guarantee
You’re a snack but you’re not mine
And I want to taste the world
So thanks for saving me the time
Of trying to be your girl
Oh I can’t be hung up on the crumbs of attention you so kindly sometimes toss to me
The air’s electric when we’re together
But I’ve got so much, so much more to be
To you I’m just some manic pixie
You don’t even really see me
And I am just such a fool for you
Knowing all this still doesn’t make it easy
Still I’m grateful for all the little ways
You manage to waste my time
Love the way you say my name
But it’s good that you’re not mine
Cus if you promised me you’d always watch
I’d perform my life for you
So I’m glad that you’ve made it clear
That’s a waste of time to do
Cus you are a snack but you are not mine
And I want to taste the world
So thanks for saving me the time
Of trying to be your girl
Oh I can’t be hung up on the crumbs of attention you so kindly sometimes toss to me
The air’s electric when we’re together
But I’ve got so much more to be
To you I’m just some manic pixie
You don’t even really see me
And I am just such a fool for you
Knowing all this still doesn’t make it easy
Why doesn’t knowing all this make it easy…
Well you’ve burrowed in deep
And I still can’t get you off my mind
Guess I’ll just keep writing songs
You’ll never even find
Honey thank you for the sparks
I don’t feel that every day
But it’s time for my last shred of self-respect and me
To go right on our way
Cus you are a snack but you are not mine
And I want to taste the world
So thanks for saving me the time
Of trying to be your girl
Oh I can’t be hung up on the crumbs of attention you so kindly sometimes toss to me
The air’s electric when we’re together
But I’ve got so much, so much more to be
To you I’m just some manic pixie
You don’t even really see me
And I am just such a fool for you
Knowing all this still doesn’t make it easy
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5. |
Bad
01:44
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Wonder if I’m wrong wonder if I’m wrong wonder if I’m wrong for wanting you so bad
Did I choose poorly did I want you because of my family is what I need just to be free am I just bad
But I feel the taste of summer and the smell of rain I can touch the fire and feel no pain
I should be drowning but I’m swimming free the air is clear there’s no stopping me
in the pitch black darkness there’s no moon beaming bright but I am at home I don’t need the light
And the ground below should be swallowing me whole but i’m floating above it I’m in control
and I don’t think I’m wrong I don’t think I’m wrong I don’t think I’m wrong for wanting you so bad
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6. |
Devil's Demands
02:59
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I can’t really tell if my brain’s breaking or expanding
I guess they’re kind of the same thing
Both mess with your mind
I can’t really tell if I’m growing or regressing
I guess they’re kind of the same thing
Both leave you behind
I can’t really tell if I’m finding freedom or in free fall
Is there a way of knowing when you’re mid-flight?
I can’t really tell if I’m chasing dreams or my downfall
What’s the protocol for getting this right?
Because all that I see in front of me
Is a world of impossibilities
I can’t really tell what is real and what’s pretending
Is it my ego or intuition igniting yeah
I can’t really tell if I’m f—ing up the ending
Which way do I go to just get it right?
Because all that I see in front of me
Is a world of impossibility
Maybe I just need to embrace that I’ll always feel a bit like a disgrace
And maybe, maybe that’s okay it’s okay it’s okay
Maybe I just need to realize that no matter what plans I devise the universe it has its own way, And that’s okay it’s okay it’s okay
Maybe someday I’ll understand perfectionism’s the devil’s demands
Or maybe I won’t and that’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay
Yeah maybe someday I’ll understand perfectionism’s the devil’s demands
Or maybe I won’t and that is okay, it’s okay, it’s okay
If all that I see in front of me
Is a world of impossibilities
Because I still see inside of me
a world of possibility
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Maria Weissman Los Angeles, California
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